Overloaded

by Sarah on February 12, 2012 · 18 comments

Do you ever just feel completely overloaded?

No, I’m not talking about the pile of laundry gathering at the foot of your bed.*

*Is that just me?

Or the leaning tower of honey-roasted peanut containers I’ve stacked on the counter.[Hey, you need a lot of nuts to make enough jars of Cinnamon Honey-Roasted Peanut Butter for everyone who came to the VA is 4 Bloggers Meet-up!]And while the pile of papers I need to grade is starting to get a bit too high, that’s not what I’m talking about either.I’m talking about an overloaded mind.

You see, I am one of those people whose brain’s never shuts off. It’ll start with one thing–like unnecessary stress and paranoia that after switching to a new feed at WordPress no one was ever going to read my blog again–and eventually catapaults itself through a maze of “I should do this,” and “Will they hate me if I don’t do that?” which, combined with the constant cycle of recipe and flavor ideas that run through my head at any given moment–say hello to Sweet Potato Samosa Stew, y’all!–leaves me constantly fired up.I start to lose track of things I ‘should’ be blogging about, like the Bamboo Bottle I was sent months ago to review. [And yet, it just keeps getting pushed down the to-do list...]Then I start feeling bad about not reviewing products, or not having a brand new recipe that will set the blog world aflame with excitement, and that just compounds the problem further…so that I do things like forget to announce the winner of my CORE Foods giveaway and blog about ABBA-inspired Quinoa Cookies instead.Oh, by the way…the winner of that giveaway?

Miss Peanut Butter & Jenny!*

*Who, I’ll be honest, I feel like is a super blog-star and I feel so honored she even glances at my blog. ;)

I’m also–contrary to popular belief and observation due to how much of a firecracker I am in social situations–the type of person who needs a lot of alone time to recharge her batteries. So, while I absolutely adore attending brunches and organizing meet-ups (and yes, I will blog more about our Virginia is 4 Bloggers Meet-Up later)……this extro [slash] introverted combination personality leads me to very quickly to overschedule and overstimulate, followed by a reactive retreat from the world.

Which is what happened today.

I almost didn’t even go into the kitchen. I almost said, “Oh well! Forget it! Those Texas Rio Star grapefruits can wait!”But I didn’t. Because no matter how overloaded I am, I know that the only way to feel better is to just plow on through.*

*I am now, apparently, the farm girl I always dreamed of being. [Well, fine, a farm girl who just sort of looks at the pigs and cows...but doesn't actually do anything with them...]

You know the old* saying: when you’re overloaded with winter squash…

*And by “old” I mean “made up right now by me.”

…the only thing you can do is start roasting.*

*These look a bit like I feel: overdone.

And I mean, really…it’s not like these (vegan) Fig & Walnut Cookies for my February Foodie Pen Pal were going to make themselves, right?I realize this probably makes absolutely no sense at all. I guess all I’m trying to say is, sometimes I get overwhelmed. Sometimes I get stressed out about things that shouldn’t be stressful. And I put undue pressure on myself…about most things.

It’s silly, but it happens.

Maybe I’m crazy, but in the end life–and blogging–goes on.*

*Just perhaps not in the way I had planned…

[And also...Sunday nights are the worst.]

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Laura @ Sprint 2 the Table February 12, 2012 at 7:04 pm

I feel your pain. You’ll get through it – we always do! :)

I love all of the meet up recaps I’m reading! I’m so jealous of that PB you made.

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Jasmine February 12, 2012 at 7:26 pm

It isn’t just you, the world can be overwhelming, But one step at a time we get through it.

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Brittany February 12, 2012 at 9:46 pm

I agree, Sunday nights are the worst. I’m glad I’m not the only one that dreads them!

Thanks so much for planning the Va is 4 Bloggers Meetup. I had a great time meeting everyone!!

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Sarah February 13, 2012 at 6:34 am

I loved meeting everyone, too! Can’t wait for the next one. :)

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Brittany February 12, 2012 at 9:46 pm

Oh and PS – Your PB is amazing. Mine is almost gone.

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Leila @ Spinach and Skittles February 12, 2012 at 11:19 pm

Totally feel ya on the overloaded front. I am down to a once-a-week post, if I’m lucky! I haven’t even been keeping up with my google reader :( Sad stuff. But I LOVE the new blog design…even if I’m a week late noticing it. I blame it on being overloaded ;)

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Lauren @ vegology February 12, 2012 at 11:25 pm

Keep on trucking, girl. You are doing great things! Also, I have to tell you that I really struggled to keep from eating that whole jar of peanut butter today. I managed to save some for my overnight oats tomorrow morning!

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Sarah February 13, 2012 at 6:33 am

You don’t even want to know how much of that peanut butter I ate this past week. [I had to test it, right?]
Let’s just say I Was nervous all y’all would look at the little jars and think, “This is like HALF of a serving! I need more!” [Too bad, since I ate it all...]

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Lindsay @ The Lean Green Bean February 12, 2012 at 11:58 pm

oh girl…i feel ya. you’re pretty much describing my life for the last month. I’m finally getting a breath of fresh air this week so i hope you get yours soon! xoxo text me if you need me EVER!!

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teabagginit February 13, 2012 at 12:33 am

i remember when i finally admitted to j all the anxiety i feel. i said, “are you kidding? i feel guilty about not reading my copies of the new yorker!” he replied, “wow, you really need to let some of that go.” i pass that along to you – the permission to let some of it go and to realize that by releasing some, you are not relinquishing any, but gaining peace and realizing success in what you do hold on to.

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Parita @ myinnershakti February 13, 2012 at 9:01 am

Trust me – I know the overload feeling much too well! The only thing you can really do is breathe, prioritize, and do what you can. It amazes me that you teach, bring home work, blog, and make all this delicious food! I need to step up my game! :)

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Liz @ IHeartVegetables February 13, 2012 at 9:15 am

I know I already said it a million times but the meet up was SO fantastic! Thank you for organizing!!! And my nut butter jar is already half empty because it’s SO delicious!!!!

I can’t wait to see the recipe for that Samosa stew. It sounds incredible!

And the salad looks like it turned out awesome!!! :)

I’m the SAME way about my mind running a million miles an hour all the time (even about things I really have no reason to worry about) and sometimes I just need to CHILL. (And by “chill” I mean, whip something up in the kitchen.) haha

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Tiff @ Love Sweat and Beers February 13, 2012 at 11:19 am

Yup, I’ve been feeling a bit overloaded myself. You know what- it’s downright exhausting!

Hope you can find time for some r&r soon!

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Tricia @ Saving room for dessert February 13, 2012 at 11:48 am

I’m with ya Sarah – it is so hard to let go of those ‘important to me’ things. I also heap an extra helping of ‘I want to fix everything for everybody’ stress because you know I don’t have enough of my own! Arrrhhh. Hey have you seen that new pirate movie? I heard it’s rated ‘Arrrhhhh’! Love ya blog daughter!

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Candy @ Healthy In Candy Land February 13, 2012 at 7:39 pm

You seem so together for feeling so overloaded! But I totally get it. It happens to me quite often–while I am much less extro- than introverted, my type A personality gets me overbooked and over committed quite often.
And don’t even get me started on Sunday nights. The anxiety of not having everything totally done and ready for a new week is ridiculous. But somehow we always power through and manage to make it through another week. Sometimes less gracefully than others, but whatever.
Nice job on the blogger meet-up. It looks like a great time!

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Fran@ Broken Cookies Don't Count February 14, 2012 at 7:55 am

Sarah, just so you know, I DID somehow lose you after you changed your blog. I’ve been worried that there might be something wrong because I wasn’t getting you in Bloglovin’. I’ve deleted you and replaced you so hopefully I’ll get all of your posts again. If not, I’ll come looking for you!

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Mandi February 15, 2012 at 10:56 am

I know exactly how you feel about your brain just overloading itself. It’s crazy how one thought turns into a mile long to do list that grows so fast you don’t have a prayer of writing down let alone accomplishing . I also tend to need a lot of alone time but I also love to get together with my friends. I blame it on being born on the cusp of Cancer and Leo, lol.

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